Don't ever feel like you have the right to hurt someone that has never done anything to you. The biggest mistake I have ever made came from hurting someone I knew cared about me but I was too blind to see that they weren't the person that hurt me. It's difficult to see passed the past sometimes, not apply it to the future. Things happen unintentionally.
Don't ever let someone fall in love with you when you don't have the intention of reciprocating the feelings. Love is something that you choose to do, it is an action which can then be turned into a feeling. I strongly believe that you choose to love, just like you choose to 'hate'. Falling for someone who has no intention of catching you is one of the worst feelings, why would you want to do that to someone you care about? I have done this, I didn't have any intention on not following through in how I felt but there was something stopping me.
Don't feel like you need to stay in a relationship or with a person because that's all you know or you're afraid to be alone. If you are unhappy, you are not only damaging yourself but those around you, too. You shouldn't be causing yourself unhappiness. I know this might sound selfish but it is okay to think of yourself every once in awhile. You are human, you have feelings, you matter. Don't forget that. Sometimes you've got to sit back and evaluate your life to get rid of things that hinder you instead of help you.
Don't say words you don't mean. Words cannot be taken back, of course you can apologize, say you're sorry a million and one times. Nothing will ever take back words after they have left your mouth or finger tips. Words cut deeper than you think, so start thinking before you speak..think before you act too. Don't be spiteful towards someone you care about; you only end up hurting them and yourself. If you love someone, you want them to be happy, to enjoy your company. It's hard to enjoy spending time with someone who is constantly putting you down or getting under your skin.
I know this may seem negative with a list of "don't do this and don't do that"s but I promise you won't regret it. Be happy. Enjoy life. Love people. Don't be afraid to get hurt. Take risks. Keep moving forward and don't let your past invade your present or future. Tell someone the way you feel about them without holding back. Don't fear rejection, embrace it. Just because you're grown up doesn't mean you can't be a kid sometimes. Love your friends, enjoy your free time, and take your you time. Until next time…
xoxox
Friday, November 15, 2013
Friday, November 8, 2013
Still That Girl *
Ever get in those moods where you don't know what the heck to do? You know you have someone who absolutely, positively cares about you yet you can't stop thinking about the past. Kinda like you don't know if you've fully let go or not. It's like you have this battle going on in your head that you can't control; like someone won't give you the remote to turn it off. It's honestly a horrible feeling. What do you do?
You know you have feelings, that you care too but is it as much? Do you care the same way? There's a difference between being in love and loving someone. I know I've said that before and I'll continue to say it, I firmly believe that it is true. I love everyone I ever meet, I may not be a huge people person, but I care more than anyone else you could ever imagine. Sometimes that gets me in trouble. I care more than I should especially about people who couldn't care less about me.
I say that people don't matter, what they say doesn't hurt me, and that I really couldn't care less how people feel about me. As much as I say that, as much as I want to believe that, it's hard. I try my best not to care but it's difficult when someone looks at you like "are you serious right now? why her? you could most definitely do so much better…and by better, I mean me, duh!" That's frustrating. I know I'm not the prettiest or skinniest or most ideal "girl", but I can tell you that I'll love you more and better than anyone else ever has. I take on something, I'm going to do it heart and soul all in.
It's difficult when you know the person that cares about you has someone that cares about them and they have a problem with you. There's always someone out there that's "better", prettier, more friendly than you. What is even worse is when said person doesn't even take the time to get to know you; it's like they take one look at you and they've made their decision. What happened to not judging a book by it's cover? Oh, wait, no one ever did that anyway, although that's something everyone should try to live by in any aspect of life, truly.
It's hard knowing that you tell someone how you feel and you're still left out in the open with the question of how they feel about you unanswered. I am a person who believes that actions most definitely speak louder than words, but when it comes to loving someone actions just aren't enough. You have to tell them, people are not mind readers. Non-verbals come off different ways to different people. Don't assume someone knows how you feel about them if you haven't told them.
Riddle me this: how can you possibly go about trusting someone after someone else hurt you? I get it, don't apply your past to the present, much easier said than done. Maybe I don't want to see it; maybe I'm so stuck in my past that I don't want anything to happen in the present because I'm terrified of getting hurt. It sucks knowing that you could have something so much better than your past but you're too stuck on the thing of lesser value. I just can't seem to grasp that I could be happier than I've ever been yet I'm letting it all slip through my fingers. I guess I just need to write an apology, explain why, and hope for the best…well, I guess that's where I'm headed. Until next time…
xoxox
You know you have feelings, that you care too but is it as much? Do you care the same way? There's a difference between being in love and loving someone. I know I've said that before and I'll continue to say it, I firmly believe that it is true. I love everyone I ever meet, I may not be a huge people person, but I care more than anyone else you could ever imagine. Sometimes that gets me in trouble. I care more than I should especially about people who couldn't care less about me.
I say that people don't matter, what they say doesn't hurt me, and that I really couldn't care less how people feel about me. As much as I say that, as much as I want to believe that, it's hard. I try my best not to care but it's difficult when someone looks at you like "are you serious right now? why her? you could most definitely do so much better…and by better, I mean me, duh!" That's frustrating. I know I'm not the prettiest or skinniest or most ideal "girl", but I can tell you that I'll love you more and better than anyone else ever has. I take on something, I'm going to do it heart and soul all in.
It's difficult when you know the person that cares about you has someone that cares about them and they have a problem with you. There's always someone out there that's "better", prettier, more friendly than you. What is even worse is when said person doesn't even take the time to get to know you; it's like they take one look at you and they've made their decision. What happened to not judging a book by it's cover? Oh, wait, no one ever did that anyway, although that's something everyone should try to live by in any aspect of life, truly.
It's hard knowing that you tell someone how you feel and you're still left out in the open with the question of how they feel about you unanswered. I am a person who believes that actions most definitely speak louder than words, but when it comes to loving someone actions just aren't enough. You have to tell them, people are not mind readers. Non-verbals come off different ways to different people. Don't assume someone knows how you feel about them if you haven't told them.
Riddle me this: how can you possibly go about trusting someone after someone else hurt you? I get it, don't apply your past to the present, much easier said than done. Maybe I don't want to see it; maybe I'm so stuck in my past that I don't want anything to happen in the present because I'm terrified of getting hurt. It sucks knowing that you could have something so much better than your past but you're too stuck on the thing of lesser value. I just can't seem to grasp that I could be happier than I've ever been yet I'm letting it all slip through my fingers. I guess I just need to write an apology, explain why, and hope for the best…well, I guess that's where I'm headed. Until next time…
xoxox
Monday, July 15, 2013
*imperfections 🌸
I think that someone's imperfections happen to be the most beautiful part of them. Imperfections are what make us different, unique. Although they are imperfections, they can be the most perfect part about a person. It doesn't make sense right? It's like an oxymoron, probably the prettiest one you'll ever see.
Sometimes imperfections get in the way, they might anger you or make you upset.
Funny how I just started this blog and someone I am friends with on facebook just shared this. It's ironic how things work out like this, but I can completely agree. It is really sad to know that we look at ourselves in such negative lights. Studies have shown that if we were to see ourselves in real life walking down the street, we would not recognize ourselves. Crazy, right?
I think this world needs a lot more positive outlooks, more encouraging people, and more of God. People need to love rather than hate and help rather than destroy. One demonstration I have seen through out my years of attending a youth group is that it is much easier to pull someone down off a chair rather than to help them up upon it. It is so much easier to be negative, to look down upon someone who is different than you or those around you.
Maybe we should stop taking the easy way out, maybe we should stop going for convenience or "it's what everybody else is doing" and start taking our own initiative. It takes just one person doing a good deed or saying a kind word that gets people to start thinking.
We are all built upon our own imperfections but they are what makes us who we truly are. No one is exactly like anyone else. I get angry too easily, but maybe you just let others push you around. We need to allow our good to shine through and let others help us when it comes to those that make us imperfect. Putting it in the closet does no good, that only hides it and allows things to fester. Clean out your closet and help those close to you, those who care so greatly about you, to help you begin a transformation. A transformation to a better you.
Now I'm not saying that you have to completely get rid of everything about yourself, I am in no way meaning that. There is no way to get rid of imperfections, but there are ways to learn to cope or control them. I have a tendency to look back on the past and think to myself 'why did you do that? how stupid. seriously, now look what you are missing out on.' unfortunately this happens more often than I would like it to BUT I always have those who care about me around. As soon as I notice myself slipping back into that state of mind, I am immediately on my phone, texting or calling my best friends. If it wasn't for them, I have no clue where I would be today.
As much as I hate to admit I have imperfections, I am thankful for them. People with similar imperfections can help each other grow. God has made us all unique for a reason, yet so alike. We are all spitting images of God just in a different light.
I once had someone who loved me very much put things of this life into perspective for me while he was doing mission work in Haiti. Tonight I reread the emails from his first trip. I have to tell you that we need to be thankful for the imperfections we have been given and the resources and people around us. We have far more to be grateful for than most even ever care to imagine. "You just have to pick up the pieces, use some God glue, and get through." Until next time...
xoxox
Sometimes imperfections get in the way, they might anger you or make you upset.
Funny how I just started this blog and someone I am friends with on facebook just shared this. It's ironic how things work out like this, but I can completely agree. It is really sad to know that we look at ourselves in such negative lights. Studies have shown that if we were to see ourselves in real life walking down the street, we would not recognize ourselves. Crazy, right?
I think this world needs a lot more positive outlooks, more encouraging people, and more of God. People need to love rather than hate and help rather than destroy. One demonstration I have seen through out my years of attending a youth group is that it is much easier to pull someone down off a chair rather than to help them up upon it. It is so much easier to be negative, to look down upon someone who is different than you or those around you.
Maybe we should stop taking the easy way out, maybe we should stop going for convenience or "it's what everybody else is doing" and start taking our own initiative. It takes just one person doing a good deed or saying a kind word that gets people to start thinking.
We are all built upon our own imperfections but they are what makes us who we truly are. No one is exactly like anyone else. I get angry too easily, but maybe you just let others push you around. We need to allow our good to shine through and let others help us when it comes to those that make us imperfect. Putting it in the closet does no good, that only hides it and allows things to fester. Clean out your closet and help those close to you, those who care so greatly about you, to help you begin a transformation. A transformation to a better you.
Now I'm not saying that you have to completely get rid of everything about yourself, I am in no way meaning that. There is no way to get rid of imperfections, but there are ways to learn to cope or control them. I have a tendency to look back on the past and think to myself 'why did you do that? how stupid. seriously, now look what you are missing out on.' unfortunately this happens more often than I would like it to BUT I always have those who care about me around. As soon as I notice myself slipping back into that state of mind, I am immediately on my phone, texting or calling my best friends. If it wasn't for them, I have no clue where I would be today.
As much as I hate to admit I have imperfections, I am thankful for them. People with similar imperfections can help each other grow. God has made us all unique for a reason, yet so alike. We are all spitting images of God just in a different light.
I once had someone who loved me very much put things of this life into perspective for me while he was doing mission work in Haiti. Tonight I reread the emails from his first trip. I have to tell you that we need to be thankful for the imperfections we have been given and the resources and people around us. We have far more to be grateful for than most even ever care to imagine. "You just have to pick up the pieces, use some God glue, and get through." Until next time...
xoxox
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
frustrations
Life is full of ups and downs. It has more frustrations than we'd like it to have, but really those make us the amazing people we all turn out to be. Without hardships, we would be ungrateful and selfish. alright, while many still fit into that category, we wouldn't be as grateful as some of us are. We wouldn't care what happened, do more reckless stupid stuff...more than the amount already.
Hardships come in every way, they happen to be different from person to person. What maybe a hardship to one person might just be a part of someone else's regular, every day life. Missing someone, losing someone, a job, house, or just growing apart from a friend.
I'm reminded every day of just how blessed I am when I wake up. I am alive, healthy, living in a house with food on the table and clothes on my back. I'm blessed enough to be able to attend college, have a summer job, and have friends that love me for me. I could go on and on, that's because I am in a good mood. Sometimes it is super difficult to take a minute and be thankful for what I have. All we ever need is to take a breath and a step back. Take a couple minutes to just think of what you have to be thankful for, I bet there's a lot more than you expected.
If everyone woke up in the morning thankful and happy to be alive, this world truly would be a better place. So many people ungrateful for what they do have; selfish about what they want that others have and they do not. Sometimes it makes me sick to my stomach the way people act. You should be thankful you live in America (that is, if you do). We have been blessed with so many more freedoms that thousands upon thousands of people do not have access to. Just like the way my religion is so important to me, I'm blessed to be able to freely act upon it. fe. Missing someone, losing someone, a job, house, or just growing apart from a friend.
I wish people would realize they live their lives with so many accessories; they have so many things that people have pinned to be "necessities" that don't come close to it in reality. People can live without flat screen TVs along with their cell phones, iPads, and kindles. Cars aren't needed, people used to walk or use animals to get around..some people still do!
Start being thankful. Take a minute to write down a list of things you are thankful for. Look at it every morning you get up. Every time you get frustrated or angry about this world, take a deep breath and look at that list. Make a new one every once in a while. Take a break and just think how different your life would be if you didn't live with all the 'luxuries' you have been burdened with. I say burdened because most people aren't satisfied with things of this world, they are constantly wanting more.
Take a moment to be blessed. Be a blessing to others. Smile at someone, tell them to have a nice day. Text an old friend and let them know you were thinking about them. It's really the little things that matter the most to people these days because so few of the little things are truly cherished! I hope y'all were blessed just a little bit or that you become a blessing to someone by reading this. Stay blessed, be blessed. until next time...
xoxox
Hardships come in every way, they happen to be different from person to person. What maybe a hardship to one person might just be a part of someone else's regular, every day life. Missing someone, losing someone, a job, house, or just growing apart from a friend.
I'm reminded every day of just how blessed I am when I wake up. I am alive, healthy, living in a house with food on the table and clothes on my back. I'm blessed enough to be able to attend college, have a summer job, and have friends that love me for me. I could go on and on, that's because I am in a good mood. Sometimes it is super difficult to take a minute and be thankful for what I have. All we ever need is to take a breath and a step back. Take a couple minutes to just think of what you have to be thankful for, I bet there's a lot more than you expected.
If everyone woke up in the morning thankful and happy to be alive, this world truly would be a better place. So many people ungrateful for what they do have; selfish about what they want that others have and they do not. Sometimes it makes me sick to my stomach the way people act. You should be thankful you live in America (that is, if you do). We have been blessed with so many more freedoms that thousands upon thousands of people do not have access to. Just like the way my religion is so important to me, I'm blessed to be able to freely act upon it. fe. Missing someone, losing someone, a job, house, or just growing apart from a friend.
I wish people would realize they live their lives with so many accessories; they have so many things that people have pinned to be "necessities" that don't come close to it in reality. People can live without flat screen TVs along with their cell phones, iPads, and kindles. Cars aren't needed, people used to walk or use animals to get around..some people still do!
Start being thankful. Take a minute to write down a list of things you are thankful for. Look at it every morning you get up. Every time you get frustrated or angry about this world, take a deep breath and look at that list. Make a new one every once in a while. Take a break and just think how different your life would be if you didn't live with all the 'luxuries' you have been burdened with. I say burdened because most people aren't satisfied with things of this world, they are constantly wanting more.
Take a moment to be blessed. Be a blessing to others. Smile at someone, tell them to have a nice day. Text an old friend and let them know you were thinking about them. It's really the little things that matter the most to people these days because so few of the little things are truly cherished! I hope y'all were blessed just a little bit or that you become a blessing to someone by reading this. Stay blessed, be blessed. until next time...
xoxox
Monday, April 8, 2013
* All the time 🙌🙏
I love my God more than anything. Without Him, I truly am nothing. I have never been more thankful for a group of people in my entire life. When I came to college, I became part of a campus ministry called Chi Alpha (XA). Most people tend to think that when I say I'm going to Chi Alpha, they automatically think a fraternity. You pull up my school's XA website and the first thing you see is "it's not a fraternity, it's a family."
Let me tell you, XA is one of the greatest families I have ever been apart of. I am so thankful for the leaders, the pastor who runs it, and all of those who attend. XA would not be the same without those amazing people. I can honestly say I have never felt more welcomed in a group of people than I do there. I have been to a lot of different places and met a lot of different people. Not one group of people could ever overpower the caring kindness and true heartfelt friendship I receive through my XA family.
Want to talk about why they are like that? God. God has everything to do with it. Those people know God and they know what He has done for us. Along with that God has blessed their lives in tremendous ways. These people have seen God work miracles and they know what He can truly do. They have a heart and a passion to lead others to see the light of God and they want to preach the Gospel.
God works through various people in different ways, but He is always working. Needless to say, Satan is always working too; but don't give him the credit, don't give him the time of day. If you allow Him, God will take control of your life, He will guide you down the path He has laid out for your life. What more could you possibly want but to do what the Creator has created you to do? God created you for a specific purpose and only YOU can fulfill. No one else can take your place, no one else can do what God has created you to do.
Along with that, this past week, I visited a neighboring school's XA. Not to mention the school happens to be 3 times bigger than mine, their XA happened to be 10 times the size of the one I attend. Those numbers are accurate and no, I am not complaining. But it is awesome to be in a room with that many college students worshipping God; it was such an incredible experience. God was really there fully that night. The Holy Spirit was all over that chapel and I couldn't have been more thankful in my entire life.
It is absolutely incredible to know that God has, is, and is going to be doing such amazing things on these college campuses. Not just the two that I have attended but at colleges all over. I never thought that just being one person in such a group could make a difference but it does. God does amazing work and He shows you His light even more through these people. To be able to humbly seek God without fear of persecution or condemnation is such a blessing. I am thankful that I live in a country where I can freely worship my God.
Through XA, I have really learned that the power of prayer is truly powerful. Prayer is so essential in a relationship with God, it's how you communicate with Him! Tonight just reinforced that prayer is so incredible and that through it, miraculous things happen! I am so thankful for my XA people and all the people I have met and will met through it. If you ever have a chance to attend XA, I strongly encourage you to so. I promise, you will not regret it! until next time....
xoxox
Let me tell you, XA is one of the greatest families I have ever been apart of. I am so thankful for the leaders, the pastor who runs it, and all of those who attend. XA would not be the same without those amazing people. I can honestly say I have never felt more welcomed in a group of people than I do there. I have been to a lot of different places and met a lot of different people. Not one group of people could ever overpower the caring kindness and true heartfelt friendship I receive through my XA family.
Want to talk about why they are like that? God. God has everything to do with it. Those people know God and they know what He has done for us. Along with that God has blessed their lives in tremendous ways. These people have seen God work miracles and they know what He can truly do. They have a heart and a passion to lead others to see the light of God and they want to preach the Gospel.
God works through various people in different ways, but He is always working. Needless to say, Satan is always working too; but don't give him the credit, don't give him the time of day. If you allow Him, God will take control of your life, He will guide you down the path He has laid out for your life. What more could you possibly want but to do what the Creator has created you to do? God created you for a specific purpose and only YOU can fulfill. No one else can take your place, no one else can do what God has created you to do.
Along with that, this past week, I visited a neighboring school's XA. Not to mention the school happens to be 3 times bigger than mine, their XA happened to be 10 times the size of the one I attend. Those numbers are accurate and no, I am not complaining. But it is awesome to be in a room with that many college students worshipping God; it was such an incredible experience. God was really there fully that night. The Holy Spirit was all over that chapel and I couldn't have been more thankful in my entire life.
It is absolutely incredible to know that God has, is, and is going to be doing such amazing things on these college campuses. Not just the two that I have attended but at colleges all over. I never thought that just being one person in such a group could make a difference but it does. God does amazing work and He shows you His light even more through these people. To be able to humbly seek God without fear of persecution or condemnation is such a blessing. I am thankful that I live in a country where I can freely worship my God.
Through XA, I have really learned that the power of prayer is truly powerful. Prayer is so essential in a relationship with God, it's how you communicate with Him! Tonight just reinforced that prayer is so incredible and that through it, miraculous things happen! I am so thankful for my XA people and all the people I have met and will met through it. If you ever have a chance to attend XA, I strongly encourage you to so. I promise, you will not regret it! until next time....
xoxox
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
*regret or forget?
Family over *e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g*
Do you ever miss someone so much it hurts? Do you ever look backing trying to pinpoint the place where it all started to go wrong? It's so harding missing someone you know doesn't miss you back. When they cross your mind, you know they are thinking about someone else. Heartbreak is hard.
Some people just don't get "love". They don't understand because they've never been there, that person will ALWAYS be a part of your life. No matter what you do, whether you break-up with or get broken up with when it comes to your first true love, you'll always have a part of them and vice versa.
It kind of sucks thinking this. It's difficult knowing that you may never have that person again. You don't regret it though, you loved your time together. It's hard knowing that you may never have that chance with them again or that they'll never love you the same way again. Love is difficult and there's never really truly knowing what love is or how it works.
Love comes in so many different ways and there are different types of love. But let me point out one thing to begin with, loving someone and BEING IN LOVE with someone are two totally different things. Although you cannot be in love with someone without loving them, you can most certainly love someone without being in love with them. Love is an action NOT a feeling. You choose who and what you love, same goes with things you choose to dislike.
You can allow yourself to make your own decisions or you can choose to love because someone else does. I believe you can teach yourself to love someone but I don't think I'm a firm believer in teaching yourself to fall in love with someone. Although loving is an action, I believe falling in love is something you don't have control over. You can keep yourself from letting it showing or telling the person how you feel though.
Teaching yourself to fall out of love with someone is a totally different story. Wanna talk about rough? That's rough. Life goes on though and you grow. It might take weeks, months, maybe even years. Love is not something that should be taken lightly. Yes, you should love everyone ESPECIALLY yourself. Love is something that we should all do. We should do it all the time and whole heartedly.
All of these pictures represent different types of love. The love I have for my family is different than the love I have for my friends although I treat them as if though they were my family. I don't know what I'd do without my friends and I've written about them before. My love is unchanging though. It is not circumstantial. Sometimes I may get angry or upset, but that doesn't mean I just stop loving someone, it doesn't work that way. Love is a lot like life and has its ups and downs just like everything else. Love is love.
.jpg)
Love should be unfailing. Love should be constant, love should flow freely. I love talking about love because it is one thing everyone should have in common at one point in their lives. Love can be for just about anything, sadly. Love needs to be not only for others but for yourself also. I always talk about loving yourself because that is one thing I have struggled with for the longest time. I'm finally understanding the importance of loving myself. Without love for myself, how can I truly love others to my fullest extent?
Above all else, I believe there is no greater love than that of God. I want to be able to love like Jesus did. Without judging, without persecution, without thinking. He loved without getting angry, without asking questions. Being patience and letting the little things matter the way they should. I want a perfect love and I want to show and give perfect love. Love is such a short word yet holds more power than a person would think. Love changes lives, love saves lives, love should be life. Always chase after love and never give up. Because without love, what are we? Until next time...
xoxox
numbers...1.2.3
I'm so sick of letting a number define me. I've always thought that it was such a silly concept to allow a number on a pair of jeans to tell me whether I was beautiful or not. I never really believed I struggled with such an issue until tonight. I don't think that pant sizes or shirt sizes or magazines or celebrities have the right to tell us whether we are beautiful or not. I believe that we should be seen by our character and the way we treat others.
It really bothers me when girls in size 4 jeans stand in front of you and say they hate how fat they are. Do they not understand that when they say that about themselves, we look at ourselves and wonder what they truly think of us? That's one of the deepest cuts and girls don't even realize how much those words can truly hurt. No one truly does until it happens to them...just like almost every other situation that shows itself in this crazy, unforetold life.
How awesome would it be if clothes were labeled not by sizes but by words that made people feel good about themselves? What if the pants were labeled "beautiful" and "curvy" and "drop dead gorgeous" no matter what size they wore? What if we stopped putting so much emphasis on how people looked and instead looked at their personalities? Character is worth so much more than looks but people these days don't seem to grab or understand that concept. I hate hearing that a girl doesn't like her body because a guy told her she was too big. Or that a guy doesn't think he's attractive enough because his body isn't built or doesn't have a six pack.
Magazines and movies and movie stars have created such a narrow space in our minds on how people should look. It truly is upsetting to know that our world has come to this. I'll be the first to admit that I haven't always been the skinniest or prettiest girl my entire life but I also don't strive to be. I want people to see me for me. I don't want them to have to scrape off the make-up and tear me apart in order to find the true me.
I'll also admit that it hasn't been such an easy ride. I know what it is like to feel unwanted or not good enough. What it's like to hate my body or not think I'm not skinny enough. I have had to train myself to block out such thoughts because I know they aren't true. The enemy is telling me these things and that is the last person I want to listen to. I know it's difficult to forget the harsh things people say about you, for some horrible reason, they tend to stick in our minds rather than the kind things tell us.
Did you know that you are more likely to remember the cruel things someone said to you rather than remembering a single good thing they said about you? Think about it. How easy is it to automatically spout off what you don't like about yourself? Now trying naming all the things you like about yourself, the things you do that you actually wouldn't mind people pointing out to you. Not as easy, huh? It's sad. I hate that our minds work that way, but unfortunately they do.
We've got to train our minds to block out the bad. I'm not saying forget anything bad anyone has ever said to you, but that we shouldn't listen when they say terrible things. You shouldn't listen to yourself especially because we are our own worst critics. It's difficult when you see someone and think "I wish I looked like that" or "Man, she's got beautiful hair, why can't I look like that?" or "That dude is ripped, if only I had his body." Don't do that. You are perfect the way you are. If you don't like something about yourself and you think you can fix it, go for it. It's not a bad thing to want to change.
I will say this, do not complain and not do anything about it. You have the power to change, use it. If you want to be fit, do it. Work out. Eat healthy. Find people who will support you and encourage you do the things you want to do. It's never a bad thing to take a risk for some good change. Cut your hair, grow it out, color it, get a perm. Hair is hair. It will always grow back. It will always go back to the way it was. I'm not saying go change yourself so you look the way the magazines say to. I'm saying that you can learn to love yourself. You can get your body to a place where you are content, you can learn to be content where you are now.
Everyone is beautiful in their own way. The way a person looks should never hinder their personality. Keep in mind, if you wouldn't want someone saying something about you, don't say it about someone else. You are perfect, honestly. There's something good in everyone, sometimes we just need a push to get it to come out. We all struggle, don't give up. The best is yet to come; it's always darkest before dawn. Until next time...
xoxox
It really bothers me when girls in size 4 jeans stand in front of you and say they hate how fat they are. Do they not understand that when they say that about themselves, we look at ourselves and wonder what they truly think of us? That's one of the deepest cuts and girls don't even realize how much those words can truly hurt. No one truly does until it happens to them...just like almost every other situation that shows itself in this crazy, unforetold life.
How awesome would it be if clothes were labeled not by sizes but by words that made people feel good about themselves? What if the pants were labeled "beautiful" and "curvy" and "drop dead gorgeous" no matter what size they wore? What if we stopped putting so much emphasis on how people looked and instead looked at their personalities? Character is worth so much more than looks but people these days don't seem to grab or understand that concept. I hate hearing that a girl doesn't like her body because a guy told her she was too big. Or that a guy doesn't think he's attractive enough because his body isn't built or doesn't have a six pack.
Magazines and movies and movie stars have created such a narrow space in our minds on how people should look. It truly is upsetting to know that our world has come to this. I'll be the first to admit that I haven't always been the skinniest or prettiest girl my entire life but I also don't strive to be. I want people to see me for me. I don't want them to have to scrape off the make-up and tear me apart in order to find the true me.
I'll also admit that it hasn't been such an easy ride. I know what it is like to feel unwanted or not good enough. What it's like to hate my body or not think I'm not skinny enough. I have had to train myself to block out such thoughts because I know they aren't true. The enemy is telling me these things and that is the last person I want to listen to. I know it's difficult to forget the harsh things people say about you, for some horrible reason, they tend to stick in our minds rather than the kind things tell us.
Did you know that you are more likely to remember the cruel things someone said to you rather than remembering a single good thing they said about you? Think about it. How easy is it to automatically spout off what you don't like about yourself? Now trying naming all the things you like about yourself, the things you do that you actually wouldn't mind people pointing out to you. Not as easy, huh? It's sad. I hate that our minds work that way, but unfortunately they do.
We've got to train our minds to block out the bad. I'm not saying forget anything bad anyone has ever said to you, but that we shouldn't listen when they say terrible things. You shouldn't listen to yourself especially because we are our own worst critics. It's difficult when you see someone and think "I wish I looked like that" or "Man, she's got beautiful hair, why can't I look like that?" or "That dude is ripped, if only I had his body." Don't do that. You are perfect the way you are. If you don't like something about yourself and you think you can fix it, go for it. It's not a bad thing to want to change.
I will say this, do not complain and not do anything about it. You have the power to change, use it. If you want to be fit, do it. Work out. Eat healthy. Find people who will support you and encourage you do the things you want to do. It's never a bad thing to take a risk for some good change. Cut your hair, grow it out, color it, get a perm. Hair is hair. It will always grow back. It will always go back to the way it was. I'm not saying go change yourself so you look the way the magazines say to. I'm saying that you can learn to love yourself. You can get your body to a place where you are content, you can learn to be content where you are now.
Everyone is beautiful in their own way. The way a person looks should never hinder their personality. Keep in mind, if you wouldn't want someone saying something about you, don't say it about someone else. You are perfect, honestly. There's something good in everyone, sometimes we just need a push to get it to come out. We all struggle, don't give up. The best is yet to come; it's always darkest before dawn. Until next time...
xoxox
Monday, February 25, 2013
skinny love *
The world is so harsh these days. I mean think about it..girls have to be skinny, have boobs, wear tons of make-up, and act ditzy in order to be "beautiful" (so says the magazines) and guys have to be skinny, yet buff and drive the nicest cars. What has society come to? It makes me sick to think that these are the rules and regulations that run the world right now. I fear that one day when I'm a mother, that my daughter never feels like she isn't skinny enough or pretty enough for society to accept her.
There are so many things wrong in this world and I believe that this concept of "beauty" is one of the main things that could so easily be fixed. If the world stopped telling us what was beautiful to everyone; beauty is not something that you can pinpoint. "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" is one of the truest statements that has ever been spoken. Beauty comes in all different colors, shapes, and sizes, as cliche as it sounds, it is true. You cannot tell me what everyone thinks is beautiful because everyone is NOT the same person. Just like you can't pinpoint exactly what is considered to be "ugly" or "hot" because we all have different opinions.
I'm coming at this from a women's point of view seeing how as I am a woman, but I don't just speak on behalf of women, this goes for men to. Women stereotypes get called out more than men because they seem to have much more of an effect. Although this may be true, men stereotypes can be just as bad. Men don't let it show, but it effects them more than what society reveals.
It's so difficult to just want to feel beautiful sometimes. I feel like I have to wear the right clothes or make sure my make-up is just perfect. Sometimes it is a real drag to have to make myself feel beautiful enough. I just want to be able to walk around in sweats with no make-up on and my hair up and feel beautiful. I want people to have to see me for me, no fronts, no masks, just the real, true beautiful me.
One of the most liberating, humbling experiences I have ever had when it comes to beauty is something called "Confidence Week". It was a week full of no mirrors, no make-up, no hair products, just a white t-shirt, and jeans. It was the coolest thing in the world. People started to recognize that something was different and I believe it truly changed lives. It was awesome to see how many people actually participated. I headed it up at my youth group and from there spread it throughout all the different schools in my home town. It was awesome to walk down the hall and see people I didn't even know participate. Although I've only done it for one week out of my entire life, it really put things into perspective for me.
It just really proved to me how much time I actually spent getting ready in the morning, doing my hair and make-up. We should never spend that much time on ourselves just so other people like us. This world has its ideals; they have completely failed the human race, there seems like there is absolutely nothing we can do about it. FALSE.
Change your ways. Don't stand behind what the world values. If you think someone is pretty tell them, if you like someone's outfit or hair just let them know. You might feel weird or think they'll freak out if they don't know you, but honestly it's one of the easiest, most liberating feelings in the world. You know how awesome it is to be told that someone likes something about you? And I mean that's coming from someone that knows you and you usually spend time with. Imagine if a stranger did that to you! They don't know your story, your past or the mistakes you've made, they simply see you for you. It is amazing what a few kind words to do for a person.
You don't know where someone stands in their life just by glancing at them, you could be changing someone's life. You could be the reason they choose not to take their life or choose to smile at the person every one is putting down. Good actions have good repercussions and a good deed does not go unnoticed. It starts a chain reaction whether you live to see it or not. You know, if you know the negative effects of something bad happening, how can you not see the joys and awesome things that could come from something good? Not to mention, it's making a positive impact in someone else's life.
Just take a moment to think about how good you feel when someone compliments you. Why would you not want to make someone feel that way? There's no excuse for not going out there and showing the world that there is a positive light somewhere. I know it's hard and you might get discouraged, but don't. Just think about how it makes you feel. You know you want to make a change in someone's life, then do this. It's a simple task. Although you may feel like you really won't make an impact this way, I'm going to tell you you are wrong. Have faith that what you say and who you say it to will be a light for the world.
I want to challenge you. Next time you like a guy's shirt or think a girl is pretty, let them know. It might not be tomorrow or next week, but don't hold back. You never know what can come from it. Why not take a chance? Learn to live, but do it positively.
Until next time....
xoxox
There are so many things wrong in this world and I believe that this concept of "beauty" is one of the main things that could so easily be fixed. If the world stopped telling us what was beautiful to everyone; beauty is not something that you can pinpoint. "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" is one of the truest statements that has ever been spoken. Beauty comes in all different colors, shapes, and sizes, as cliche as it sounds, it is true. You cannot tell me what everyone thinks is beautiful because everyone is NOT the same person. Just like you can't pinpoint exactly what is considered to be "ugly" or "hot" because we all have different opinions.
I'm coming at this from a women's point of view seeing how as I am a woman, but I don't just speak on behalf of women, this goes for men to. Women stereotypes get called out more than men because they seem to have much more of an effect. Although this may be true, men stereotypes can be just as bad. Men don't let it show, but it effects them more than what society reveals.
It's so difficult to just want to feel beautiful sometimes. I feel like I have to wear the right clothes or make sure my make-up is just perfect. Sometimes it is a real drag to have to make myself feel beautiful enough. I just want to be able to walk around in sweats with no make-up on and my hair up and feel beautiful. I want people to have to see me for me, no fronts, no masks, just the real, true beautiful me.
One of the most liberating, humbling experiences I have ever had when it comes to beauty is something called "Confidence Week". It was a week full of no mirrors, no make-up, no hair products, just a white t-shirt, and jeans. It was the coolest thing in the world. People started to recognize that something was different and I believe it truly changed lives. It was awesome to see how many people actually participated. I headed it up at my youth group and from there spread it throughout all the different schools in my home town. It was awesome to walk down the hall and see people I didn't even know participate. Although I've only done it for one week out of my entire life, it really put things into perspective for me.
It just really proved to me how much time I actually spent getting ready in the morning, doing my hair and make-up. We should never spend that much time on ourselves just so other people like us. This world has its ideals; they have completely failed the human race, there seems like there is absolutely nothing we can do about it. FALSE.
Change your ways. Don't stand behind what the world values. If you think someone is pretty tell them, if you like someone's outfit or hair just let them know. You might feel weird or think they'll freak out if they don't know you, but honestly it's one of the easiest, most liberating feelings in the world. You know how awesome it is to be told that someone likes something about you? And I mean that's coming from someone that knows you and you usually spend time with. Imagine if a stranger did that to you! They don't know your story, your past or the mistakes you've made, they simply see you for you. It is amazing what a few kind words to do for a person.
You don't know where someone stands in their life just by glancing at them, you could be changing someone's life. You could be the reason they choose not to take their life or choose to smile at the person every one is putting down. Good actions have good repercussions and a good deed does not go unnoticed. It starts a chain reaction whether you live to see it or not. You know, if you know the negative effects of something bad happening, how can you not see the joys and awesome things that could come from something good? Not to mention, it's making a positive impact in someone else's life.
Just take a moment to think about how good you feel when someone compliments you. Why would you not want to make someone feel that way? There's no excuse for not going out there and showing the world that there is a positive light somewhere. I know it's hard and you might get discouraged, but don't. Just think about how it makes you feel. You know you want to make a change in someone's life, then do this. It's a simple task. Although you may feel like you really won't make an impact this way, I'm going to tell you you are wrong. Have faith that what you say and who you say it to will be a light for the world.
I want to challenge you. Next time you like a guy's shirt or think a girl is pretty, let them know. It might not be tomorrow or next week, but don't hold back. You never know what can come from it. Why not take a chance? Learn to live, but do it positively.
Until next time....
xoxox
Monday, February 11, 2013
* Almost Lover ♥
The craziest things happen in this outrageous world these days. You never know when someone is just going to get up and walk into your life...or walk out of it. The hardest part is not knowing. Being human, we don't like the unknown. We want to know everything as soon as possible and we want to know everything about it.
When people walk into your life, it's one of the best things that could happen. I love meeting new people and making friends. People can be so awesome sometimes and you honestly never know what could come of it. Never judge someone before getting to know them. You don't know their story or most of what has happened to them. Sometimes, just learning someone's story can show you how much you are alike or how much you can relate to each other.
Listening to someone else's story is such an incredible experience. There's no better way to grow and create a bond with a person. Learning to listen, LISTEN not hear, is such a key aspect in any type of relationship. Listening can be just as important as talking and giving advice. I know people like to talk but we all need to learn to listen too. Sometimes listening is exactly what the doctor has ordered. Learn to listen or work on it if you know you struggle, it is super important.
Along with that, be open. Open minded, open hearted, and just plain open. Don't ever hide how you are feeling with someone who cares about you. Don't lie to them and tell them you are okay if you aren't. We are human, we are NOT mind readers, don't assume that someone knows how you feel if you have yet to say out loud how you do feel. Emotions can be conveyed so many different ways and everyone interprets them differently. Just because someone is smiling on the outside doesn't mean that they are truly happy. Never be rude to someone for no reason and never expect anything in return from anyone for whom you do a good deed.
Don't ever go around bragging. Live life for yourself. Do not base your life on someone else's. Don't make decisions based on what someone else is doing in their life. You live your life for you or you aren't truly living life. Living life has so many different meanings to the phrase. Don't let anyone tell you that in order to "live life to the fullest" you have to party, get drunk, have sex, do drugs, or anything you don't want to do. Living life is doing what you want, enjoying life, loving people who love you back, and being able to accept and love yourself for you.
Do good deeds. Don't do it because you want people to like you. Don't do it because you feel like you have to. Don't do it for "bragging" rights. Do it because you are a good person. Smile at someone who seems not happy, say hello..for once, put your phone in your pocket while you are walking in public and pay attention. You will notice so many things that you never knew where there, even if you walk the same road or side walk every day twice a day. You never know how much a smile can mean to someone. Pay for someone's lunch or Starbucks. Leave someone a little note, send a random text letting them know that you are thinking about them.
There is no time to spend your entire life fighting. Don't waste your time on someone who sucks all the happiness out of you. Pray. Don't give up. Always perservere and move on with life. You are stuck in this life until God decides it is time for you to come home. Don't push away someone you care for because you are afraid to get hurt. We are human, everyone makes mistakes and everyone gets hurt. That's why you keep the people who love and care about you so close. You can always fix a fight, but you can't always get someone back after they are already gone.
Losing someone is something I believe to be one of the hardest things we have to deal with in this life. Whether it is them passing or someone walking out of your life or you walking out of their life. You can never just forget someone that made an impact on your life. Their footprint has been imprinted in your life and their signature in your book of life. Life is a crazy wild ride, don't be too afraid to get on the bull...if you fall off, dust off your jeans and get right back on. At least you won't be sitting around wondering "what if?" your entire life.
When people walk into your life, it's one of the best things that could happen. I love meeting new people and making friends. People can be so awesome sometimes and you honestly never know what could come of it. Never judge someone before getting to know them. You don't know their story or most of what has happened to them. Sometimes, just learning someone's story can show you how much you are alike or how much you can relate to each other.
Listening to someone else's story is such an incredible experience. There's no better way to grow and create a bond with a person. Learning to listen, LISTEN not hear, is such a key aspect in any type of relationship. Listening can be just as important as talking and giving advice. I know people like to talk but we all need to learn to listen too. Sometimes listening is exactly what the doctor has ordered. Learn to listen or work on it if you know you struggle, it is super important.
Along with that, be open. Open minded, open hearted, and just plain open. Don't ever hide how you are feeling with someone who cares about you. Don't lie to them and tell them you are okay if you aren't. We are human, we are NOT mind readers, don't assume that someone knows how you feel if you have yet to say out loud how you do feel. Emotions can be conveyed so many different ways and everyone interprets them differently. Just because someone is smiling on the outside doesn't mean that they are truly happy. Never be rude to someone for no reason and never expect anything in return from anyone for whom you do a good deed.
Don't ever go around bragging. Live life for yourself. Do not base your life on someone else's. Don't make decisions based on what someone else is doing in their life. You live your life for you or you aren't truly living life. Living life has so many different meanings to the phrase. Don't let anyone tell you that in order to "live life to the fullest" you have to party, get drunk, have sex, do drugs, or anything you don't want to do. Living life is doing what you want, enjoying life, loving people who love you back, and being able to accept and love yourself for you.
Do good deeds. Don't do it because you want people to like you. Don't do it because you feel like you have to. Don't do it for "bragging" rights. Do it because you are a good person. Smile at someone who seems not happy, say hello..for once, put your phone in your pocket while you are walking in public and pay attention. You will notice so many things that you never knew where there, even if you walk the same road or side walk every day twice a day. You never know how much a smile can mean to someone. Pay for someone's lunch or Starbucks. Leave someone a little note, send a random text letting them know that you are thinking about them.
Don't ever let go or forget. There will be those people who are in your life and everyone comes in or goes out for a reason. They may be there for a season or just one simple reason, but don't forget. Whether they were a good or bad impact, you learn a little something from everyone who comes into your life. Never regret anything, and by that I literally mean anything. Life is too short to live it full of regrets. Cliche I know, but it's the honest truth. You did what you did at that point in time because it was what made you happy. Yes, it might have just been temporary happiness, you might not want to make that mistake again, but it's happened. Done and over with. There is no such thing as a time machine and you cannot go back and change the past. Accept it. Love life and move on.
There is no time to spend your entire life fighting. Don't waste your time on someone who sucks all the happiness out of you. Pray. Don't give up. Always perservere and move on with life. You are stuck in this life until God decides it is time for you to come home. Don't push away someone you care for because you are afraid to get hurt. We are human, everyone makes mistakes and everyone gets hurt. That's why you keep the people who love and care about you so close. You can always fix a fight, but you can't always get someone back after they are already gone.
Best friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, brothers, sisters, moms, dads, cousins, and any other person that might be important in your life, TELL THEM. Don't just assume someone you love knows that you care or love them. Reassure them. Always check in, make sure that they are doing well. Ask what you can do to help. Tell someone you are going to pray for them and actually do it. Don't mess up relationships by letting life get in the middle. Sometimes things happen and people grow apart, that's the way life works. If you care for someone, don't let them slip through the cracks. Keep those you love near and dear to you. Don't let your grip slip from them. Keep your head up and your shoulders strong, so you can always be ready for someone who needs you.
Don't expect anything from anyone. Always do what you believe is right and don't change how you feel because someone told you it's wrong. Keep your faith strong. Cry if you need to, it's not a sign of weakness, it's a sign of pain leaving the body. Scream, yell, punch things. Don't hold it in and let it bottle up.
I could go on and on about this. I'm sure there will be more to say one day. Until then...
xoxox
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
* y o u *
You know, I think one of the hardest parts of this life is relationships. Any type for that matter. Friendships, relationships, best friends, acquaintances, and just with people around you. This day in age it's like you have to have some sort of "title" for every person that walks into your life. It is truly sad that everyone can't just get along and there has to be rumors and petty fights. Life would be much easier if everyone just loved the way Jesus does.
I may not have the best relationship advice, but I have plenty of friendship advice. I have been through enough in my little amount of time that I have been on this earth and trust me, it has all contributed to the person I am and becoming. I haven't always had the group of friends every girl has, honestly my sisters have always been my best friends. I'm not one to just have someone in my life for a little while; if you plan on coming into my life, plan on being there for a very long time.
My very best friend is still one of my best friends. We've been best friends since kindergarten and although we've gone our separate ways, we are still best friends. See what I mean about staying for a long time? Next to her, my other best friend I met through a mutual friend. She has been my rock for the last three years and I wouldn't change it for the world. We are inseparable when we are together but rarely get to see each other anymore.
I love my friends so much. I know the ones I have made in college will last a lifetime and I am super excited to see what God has in store for us. I have a hard time trusting people, so they know once they earn and gain my trust, they are in it for the long haul. I have learned the hard way about trusting people. The saying "there's always a little truth behind every just kidding" is something that I believe whole heartedly. If someone is using that as an excuse to put you or someone else down, don't believe it when they say "just kidding", it is today's equivalence to "no offense but". Just because you say that does not mean you have the right to insult someone.
I try to live by these principles myself although I am still human, I make mistakes. My friends know me, I'm not going to blindside anyone coming into my life. I tell them straight up how I am. I know I have my own share of faults that God and I are working out, so I never want anyone to be surprised if something happens that would seem "unexpected" to them. I am a believer in second chances only when they prove that they truly deserve one. I'm not one to just hand out second chances because I've been doubly burned doing that before. Why give someone a second chance when they aren't sorry about what they did in the first place? They have got to be completely sincere.
When it comes to relationships, I am very careful to guard my heart along with my mind. Although I've only ever had one relationship, I think I learned a lot in the three and a half years. Relationships are tough and don't ever let anyone tell you differently. That might sound extremely pessimistic, but it is the cold hard truth. Why would you want to go into a test thinking you didn't have to study knowing the rest of your life could depend on it? You wouldn't. Same idea with a relationship. Relationships need to be worked on by both sides. The most important part of having a relationship for me is having God in the center. Without Him, how is it going to work? Let me tell you, from my experience, it doesn't. Life is so much easier and ENJOYABLE with God being in your relationship with you.
You know people are going to let you down sometimes. But God doesn't and He's always right there for you. I know this because I've been there. Trust me, break ups are not fun. I mean, yeah I've only gone through one, but heck...that's the only one I ever want or need to go through. I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for God and my friends and family who have helped me through, literally carrying me through this.
Relationships are difficult and they're really touchy subjects these days. Word to the wise? Do not let anyone else into your relationship with your significant other. Hence why relationships are only two people. Don't go around flaunting your problems or telling people everything that happens in your personal life. That makes the struggle that much harder. And be open! We are humans NOT mind readers. If something is going on in your head, express it. Do it in a kind way, don't just explode. There's always a solution to every problem, you just have to voice it.
Do not let things go unnoticed. You let one thing slide, they think everything is okay. Do not settle for less than what you deserve. Being treated like crap or a side chick? Kick him to the curb, there's no use in that. There's someone else out there that is going to treat you the way you should be treated and you'll be glad you gave the opportunity to treat you well. There are so many more things to be said about relationships, but those will have to wait until next time...
xoxox
I may not have the best relationship advice, but I have plenty of friendship advice. I have been through enough in my little amount of time that I have been on this earth and trust me, it has all contributed to the person I am and becoming. I haven't always had the group of friends every girl has, honestly my sisters have always been my best friends. I'm not one to just have someone in my life for a little while; if you plan on coming into my life, plan on being there for a very long time.
My very best friend is still one of my best friends. We've been best friends since kindergarten and although we've gone our separate ways, we are still best friends. See what I mean about staying for a long time? Next to her, my other best friend I met through a mutual friend. She has been my rock for the last three years and I wouldn't change it for the world. We are inseparable when we are together but rarely get to see each other anymore.
I love my friends so much. I know the ones I have made in college will last a lifetime and I am super excited to see what God has in store for us. I have a hard time trusting people, so they know once they earn and gain my trust, they are in it for the long haul. I have learned the hard way about trusting people. The saying "there's always a little truth behind every just kidding" is something that I believe whole heartedly. If someone is using that as an excuse to put you or someone else down, don't believe it when they say "just kidding", it is today's equivalence to "no offense but". Just because you say that does not mean you have the right to insult someone.
I try to live by these principles myself although I am still human, I make mistakes. My friends know me, I'm not going to blindside anyone coming into my life. I tell them straight up how I am. I know I have my own share of faults that God and I are working out, so I never want anyone to be surprised if something happens that would seem "unexpected" to them. I am a believer in second chances only when they prove that they truly deserve one. I'm not one to just hand out second chances because I've been doubly burned doing that before. Why give someone a second chance when they aren't sorry about what they did in the first place? They have got to be completely sincere.
When it comes to relationships, I am very careful to guard my heart along with my mind. Although I've only ever had one relationship, I think I learned a lot in the three and a half years. Relationships are tough and don't ever let anyone tell you differently. That might sound extremely pessimistic, but it is the cold hard truth. Why would you want to go into a test thinking you didn't have to study knowing the rest of your life could depend on it? You wouldn't. Same idea with a relationship. Relationships need to be worked on by both sides. The most important part of having a relationship for me is having God in the center. Without Him, how is it going to work? Let me tell you, from my experience, it doesn't. Life is so much easier and ENJOYABLE with God being in your relationship with you.
You know people are going to let you down sometimes. But God doesn't and He's always right there for you. I know this because I've been there. Trust me, break ups are not fun. I mean, yeah I've only gone through one, but heck...that's the only one I ever want or need to go through. I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for God and my friends and family who have helped me through, literally carrying me through this.
Relationships are difficult and they're really touchy subjects these days. Word to the wise? Do not let anyone else into your relationship with your significant other. Hence why relationships are only two people. Don't go around flaunting your problems or telling people everything that happens in your personal life. That makes the struggle that much harder. And be open! We are humans NOT mind readers. If something is going on in your head, express it. Do it in a kind way, don't just explode. There's always a solution to every problem, you just have to voice it.
Do not let things go unnoticed. You let one thing slide, they think everything is okay. Do not settle for less than what you deserve. Being treated like crap or a side chick? Kick him to the curb, there's no use in that. There's someone else out there that is going to treat you the way you should be treated and you'll be glad you gave the opportunity to treat you well. There are so many more things to be said about relationships, but those will have to wait until next time...
xoxox
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
silver and gold
The greatest feeling in the entire world is just getting to be yourself. All judgments aside and no one to impress. Being yourself is by far one of the most relieving this to do in this world. It's awesome to just be able to relax around people who love you and just be who they know you are. No hiding behind a mask or putting up some front of who we really aren't.
Knowing that my family accepts and loves me for me is absolutely awesome. I know my sisters are just as crazy, loud, and weird as me. I love it. I love the fact that we can laugh at absolutely nothing. My sisters are my true best friends. They always have been and they always will be. Although we bicker and fight along with tease and make fun, I know they are always there for me. Yeah, we joke a lot of the time, most of the time we are together, but we can be serious when we need to be.
I look up to my sisters more than they know or ever probably will know. They have taught me so much about life, love, and just being myself. They taught me to never settle less than I deserve, people that want to be in my life will find a way to get there and stay there, and that family always comes first. I wouldn't be half the sister, friend, or person I am today without them. They are seriously my backbone and I would be so lost without them. I know I can go to them with anything and that they won't judge me. My sisters want the best for me and I know they share my pain, joy, and anger. I love my sisters with my entire heart and I would do absolutely any thing for all three of them. I have been truly blessed.
Along with that, all my friends I have had through out my entire life have contributed to the person I am today. One of my best friends has been my best friend since kindergarten. I wouldn't change a thing about our friendship. I know college has kind of separated us, we don't talk as often as we used to or as we'd like, but when we do talk it's like nothing ever changed. We still talk like we have been talking every single day. I miss her so much and I am so glad that we are experiencing different things. I cannot wait to see where life is going to take us.
One of my best friends growing up was one of my cousins. We did everything together. We were always having sleepovers and never wanting to leave each other. Our lives were one in the same and we were inseparable. Even through middle school, we were probably closer than we had ever been. Through high school and college we haven't been as close, but we still talk. I still consider her to be one of my best friends. She is one person I know I can come to with anything and know I won't be judged. We have lived two very different lives but I know she will always understand me and vice versa. I would give anything to see her achieve everything she wants out of this life. She is one person that I know can truly be herself anywhere. She is truly inspiring to me. Although she might never know it, she is what everyone should be like. She doesn't care what people think and she doesn't try to impress anyone with fancy things. She is always going to be herself no matter where she is. She might be younger than me, but I have learned a lot from her. She is amazing.
Last but certainly not least and definitely not even close to the last people to talk about are my suite mates. They are the two best friends a girl could ever ask for. I've never been one to have many friends but as soon as I got to college they befriended me like it was nothing. I have never had two people accept me for me as quickly as they did. I am so thankful that I can be myself around them and that I get to experience the best years of my life with them. I would not have made it through my first semester of college without them in all complete honesty. Without evening knowing me that well, they openly and welcomely sat and listened to me cry over my, what is now, last relationship. I would not trade these girls for the world. They are absolutely amazing. I love and accept them for who they are. I love their personalities and every little quirk. You would think that we have been best friends all of our lives.
I am so thankful for so many people in my life. The list goes on and on. I could write forever about people I love and helped me become me. Those people who helped shape me and are no longer in my life are just as important. I'm sure I'll be talking about these people along with others as I continue to write. I love my life and I truly should not complain. I have been blessed. I am thankful, grateful, and loved.
I really can't deny it. I am who I am. I’m pretty normal. I’m not that smooth type of girl. I run into things. I trip. I spill food. I say stupid things. I really don't have it all together. -Katie Holmes
with that being said, until next time...
xoxox
Knowing that my family accepts and loves me for me is absolutely awesome. I know my sisters are just as crazy, loud, and weird as me. I love it. I love the fact that we can laugh at absolutely nothing. My sisters are my true best friends. They always have been and they always will be. Although we bicker and fight along with tease and make fun, I know they are always there for me. Yeah, we joke a lot of the time, most of the time we are together, but we can be serious when we need to be.
I look up to my sisters more than they know or ever probably will know. They have taught me so much about life, love, and just being myself. They taught me to never settle less than I deserve, people that want to be in my life will find a way to get there and stay there, and that family always comes first. I wouldn't be half the sister, friend, or person I am today without them. They are seriously my backbone and I would be so lost without them. I know I can go to them with anything and that they won't judge me. My sisters want the best for me and I know they share my pain, joy, and anger. I love my sisters with my entire heart and I would do absolutely any thing for all three of them. I have been truly blessed.
Along with that, all my friends I have had through out my entire life have contributed to the person I am today. One of my best friends has been my best friend since kindergarten. I wouldn't change a thing about our friendship. I know college has kind of separated us, we don't talk as often as we used to or as we'd like, but when we do talk it's like nothing ever changed. We still talk like we have been talking every single day. I miss her so much and I am so glad that we are experiencing different things. I cannot wait to see where life is going to take us.
One of my best friends growing up was one of my cousins. We did everything together. We were always having sleepovers and never wanting to leave each other. Our lives were one in the same and we were inseparable. Even through middle school, we were probably closer than we had ever been. Through high school and college we haven't been as close, but we still talk. I still consider her to be one of my best friends. She is one person I know I can come to with anything and know I won't be judged. We have lived two very different lives but I know she will always understand me and vice versa. I would give anything to see her achieve everything she wants out of this life. She is one person that I know can truly be herself anywhere. She is truly inspiring to me. Although she might never know it, she is what everyone should be like. She doesn't care what people think and she doesn't try to impress anyone with fancy things. She is always going to be herself no matter where she is. She might be younger than me, but I have learned a lot from her. She is amazing.
Last but certainly not least and definitely not even close to the last people to talk about are my suite mates. They are the two best friends a girl could ever ask for. I've never been one to have many friends but as soon as I got to college they befriended me like it was nothing. I have never had two people accept me for me as quickly as they did. I am so thankful that I can be myself around them and that I get to experience the best years of my life with them. I would not have made it through my first semester of college without them in all complete honesty. Without evening knowing me that well, they openly and welcomely sat and listened to me cry over my, what is now, last relationship. I would not trade these girls for the world. They are absolutely amazing. I love and accept them for who they are. I love their personalities and every little quirk. You would think that we have been best friends all of our lives.
I am so thankful for so many people in my life. The list goes on and on. I could write forever about people I love and helped me become me. Those people who helped shape me and are no longer in my life are just as important. I'm sure I'll be talking about these people along with others as I continue to write. I love my life and I truly should not complain. I have been blessed. I am thankful, grateful, and loved.
I really can't deny it. I am who I am. I’m pretty normal. I’m not that smooth type of girl. I run into things. I trip. I spill food. I say stupid things. I really don't have it all together. -Katie Holmes
with that being said, until next time...
xoxox
Monday, January 28, 2013
All the Time *
I just love being able to stand up and share my faith. I love my God so much and He has truly done so much for me. I honestly don't know where I would be if I didn't have God in my life. Today has just been so wonderful, I know it is all because of him. The weather outside was beautiful!
Today I got to go infront of my public speaking class and show a piece of my past, present, and future. My past was a picture of the leadership team I used to be on back at home, the Coalition. I miss that and the people in it so much it hurts. Those people meant the world to me. God truly blessed me when He placed them in my life. I got to stand in front of those people and show that I was a part of the Coalition and explain that my faith is a huge part about my life. Some of them probably thought that I was insane, but I was so excited to show a part of my past. I love looking back on those memories and seeing how God worked through all of us. I am truly blessed.
On top of that, I got to go back to Encounter tonight. Encounter is the Monday night worship/lesson service held on campus by Chi Alpha (XA). XA is so amazing and the people are absolutely wonderful. All Christians should truly have the attitudes those awesome people do. They are so down-to-earth and true to themselves. They don't have to put on some act or act like they're big, bad Christians. They just shine Christ's light by being themselves and who God has called them to be.
Tonight, worship was just amazing. I love being able to praise God with people who love me and believe the same things I do. I think it is awesome that we can just come together and hang out and know that God has a huge plan for our lives. I know there is a reason God put XA in my life and I am so super excited to see what the big picture is. I love being able to just dwell in God's presence and bask in His glory. It is amazing to just know that He has already overcome this world for us and that we really shouldn't worry. God's got my back. He has a plan for me. I just need to follow His word and will. I need to keep on the path less traveled, the narrow path. Worship gets me so pumped.
The lesson was incredible. Aaron talked on being "Global Christians". It was really crazy to hear all the statistics he was throwing out, and kind of sad at the same time. Along with that, it broke my heart to hear a story so true that a girl asked if he was a "real Christian". But think about it, are you a "real Christian" or are you just one of those people that say you're a Christian because you believe in God? There's a difference. You must act out on your faith and go to church and practice what you believe.
The statistic is that the average time a Christian spends praying in a day is 3 minutes. 3 minutes. Can you believe that? 3 little tiny minutes..out of 24 hours of the day! I think that is so pathetic, so sad. I want so badly to believe that's not true, but I know it is knowing the type of society and world we live in today. Our world has gotten to be so materialistic that it makes me sick. People have lost sight of why we are even here and our true purpose. I want to be able to reach out to people and make a difference in their lives.
I am so excited to get back into my old ways. I want my awesome relationship I used to have with God back. He used to, still is though, my best friend. I can always go to Him with anything. Obviously. And why wouldn't I want to? I mean, He's had my entire life planned before I was born AND has numbered every single hair on my head.
I am so thankful that I have been raised a believer and that my family has been active in showing me how to be a true Christian. I want to give back and help and bring people to Christ. I love God with my entire heart and I want to let every single person I meet know that. I want them to know that they can have that too. God is always there and He is always waiting.
God is good all the time! All the time, God is good! <3 until next time...
xoxox
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Neon Lights *
I seriously cannot stand people who think they know everything about you and your life just because they are older than you. News flash: they don't. No one knows everything about you except you. Honestly, they probably don't even know the half of what you have to say or have done over the course of your life.
I've been the youngest of five kids my entire life, they all try to rule my life. Fortunately, none of them have been very successful. I'm in college and I will make my own decision. If they continue to tell me what they think I need to do, the further I will continue to distance myself from them. Why don't people ever learn? Stop dancing in circles and change your tactics. It really is not that difficult.
Being in college kind of sucks a lot sometimes, but it is a million times better than high school. The other day we had a crazy out-of-nowhere snow storm and we actually closed early. So my best girlfriends and I decided to have a photo shoot. (: here are some of the pictures!
I love the snow and although I am not the biggest fan of my college, I decided to give it some love.
And above I just can't help but wear my purple Carhartt, I absolutely love that jacket. Along with my awesome WV rainboots, since me being the smarty pants I am left my snow boots at home.
This girl is my best friend. Although I only met her in August, I feel like I have known her my entire life and I love it. I can come to her with anything, she never judges me. I am so thankful and blessed to have her in my life. I honestly have not one stinking clue how I would have survived my first semester here at college without her. She has held me in her arms while I have cried too many times to count, I love her even more for that. I know she is a life long friend and I am super excited to be able to share our lives and grow old together. I know God has some awesome plans for our lives! <3
I've been the youngest of five kids my entire life, they all try to rule my life. Fortunately, none of them have been very successful. I'm in college and I will make my own decision. If they continue to tell me what they think I need to do, the further I will continue to distance myself from them. Why don't people ever learn? Stop dancing in circles and change your tactics. It really is not that difficult.
Being in college kind of sucks a lot sometimes, but it is a million times better than high school. The other day we had a crazy out-of-nowhere snow storm and we actually closed early. So my best girlfriends and I decided to have a photo shoot. (: here are some of the pictures!
And above I just can't help but wear my purple Carhartt, I absolutely love that jacket. Along with my awesome WV rainboots, since me being the smarty pants I am left my snow boots at home.
I feel like life is so difficult trying to figure out "what I want to do for the rest of my life". Like everything I want to accomplish in life can be printed out on a little piece of paper. That doesn't happen and I really hate that they make us choose. There are so many different things I want to do with my life and it is really difficult to choose just one! Right now, I am a music therapy major. Which is totally awesome and I think the world definitely needs way more music therapists, but it just is not for me. I absolutely adore the therapy part of it, but not so much the classical training in music. Along with that, I love to write. I do it all the time, I have for years. One day I am determined to write a book; it WILL happen.
It is a struggle for me to pick a major right now. I really am looking into communications along with counseling and photography. But I was thinking, I could double major in journalism and photography, those are two great things to have together. I need to pray about it though, I feel like I should really go into communications. I truly felt like when Julie told me that she thought I would be good in communications, God was telling her to say that to me. They both knew that I was and still am struggling to decide what to do with my life.
I feel as if I have been entirely too blessed my entire life. I do not deserve half of what I have been given. I want to be able to give back and help those in need. I cannot wait to have a family and teach my kids how to give back. It isn't done enough in today's society but it is one of the most important things we could possibly do. I am slowly but surely learning to love life again and I cannot wait to see what God has planned for me! But until next time...
xoxox
Thursday, January 24, 2013
slow dancin' in a burning room
So, writing has always been such a passion of mine. I remember when I really started writing for myself, I did it for and about people I cared deeply about. It was one year when my friend's mom passed away that I really began to get into writing. I wrote these poem type things that weren't truly poems, but they were the feelings I had for a certain person that I wasn't able to speak out loud. Everything always comes out better on paper for me. I never truly specified in the writing who it was for, but if you knew me, you could read it and automatically know.
I never kept anything that I wrote about someone to myself. I usually told them that I wrote it, allowed them to read it, and waited for feedback or a response. I always was anxious about their response, sometimes I did not think I had the guts to hear what they had to say. Writing was the best thing I ever did to myself. It helped me say things that I could never physically say. It always had my greatest or worst memories, my feelings, inside jokes, nicknames, and so much more.
Writing truly saved me from myself and so many other evil things in this world. I wish I could write like I used to. I believe I was given a gift, but I set it aside for a person and lost it. The way I could just sit down and put a pen to a page was incredible to me. Honestly, half the time I didn't know what I was writing until I was done. Sometimes what I wrote only made sense to me until I explained it. Writing was a backbone my entire freshman year of high school.
One girl that was my best friend freshman year wrote along with me. Writing was just one of the many talents we had in common. I knew there was a reason God put her in my life, even if it was just for a short amount of time. She always encouraged me to continue to write and helped me when I was stuck in a writer's block. I am so thankful that she encouraged me to do what I loved. She was such an incredible writer herself and I truly hope she is still writing to this day. I know that she will make something amazing out of herself one day, and I am super excited to see what comes of it.
One of my most distinct memories of one of my absolute favorite writings is actually for and about this girl. We were at the youth lock-in at her church and I suddenly had the urge to write. So I got my notebook and my purple pen (the two things I kept with me at all times and the only things I EVER wrote in) and hide underneath a ping pong table. I didn't come out until I had two pages (typed, probably 4 hand written) about her and just the experiences of that night. Although we were only friends for just a few short four months before that, we had tons of memories. We were pretty much inseparable; we called each other sister. Even though we aren't as close as we used to be, we still call each other that when we do talk on rare occasions. We were truly sisters in Christ and always will be. We helped each other through so much and I am so very grateful for the time we did spend together as best friends.
It's funny that I'm writing about this because I really haven't thought about it in a really long time. It was just a mere four years ago when this all happened but so much stuff has happened that it doesn't seem like that was such a significant part of my life anymore. But it really is significant, it really shaped who I am today. Those writings and that girl were such a huge part of my life. I don't know where I would be without them, in all honesty.
It is kind of sad to think about all that I have left behind and know that it is not longer in my life. Sometimes I wish I was back at that lock-in, hiding under the pew while playing sardines. Or passing the ball at 5 am because we still hadn't gone to sleep. Those are memories I will never forget. And if there comes a time that I do, all I have to do is look back and pull out those "poems" I wrote and it will all come flooding back.
Hopefully one day I will be half the writer I used to be. I wish I had the same talent in the same way again. Words just flowed onto the page like I wasn't even there, they just seemed to kind of appear. Thinking about it, it's just like slow dancing in a burning room, eventually everything that was once there will be gone. No way to bring it back, just starting from scratch, all brand new. Memories will be replaced and I'll start writing in different ways.
I'm just glad I've gotten back into the grove. Hopefully once my schedule becomes normal routine I'll be able to write everyday, but until that happens I will write as frequently as I can.
until next time....
xoxox
Monday, January 21, 2013
back to school
So today I came back to school...unfortunately. Don't get me wrong, I love getting to see my friends and being at my new "home", but I could go without sharing with a rude person. I don't think my college experience would be so horrible if my roommate wasn't so bad. I am not one that tries to trash talk people but this is one exception. It's hard to live with someone who hates you, but the feeling is pretty much mutual.
Anyway, no use in spending my time talking about something that does not matter to me in this life. But I am so thankful for my friends. I am so glad to be back with my two best friends, Amy and JoBeth. They are my backbones and I do not have any idea how I would have ever gotten through my first year of college without them. God truly blessed me with such amazing girls, I really could not have asked for anyone better.
Along with them, my friend Taylor transferred here this semester. I am super excited for her to be here and to get close. We didn't really start off on the right foot, but it's exciting to be able to start new. (: Having second chances make all the difference and everyone deserves at least one. She doesn't know very many people here, so I'm excited to be a big part of her experience here. She is an amazing girl and I know she will do great. She will befriend a lot of people being such a sweet girl, I am excited to see what God has in store for her this semester.
God is my best friend. Although I pretty much turned my back on him the last four months, but things are changing now. I can't keep living the way I have and there is no way that I will let depression rule my life. I am worth more than I think I am. I am loved, cared for, and wanted here. I need to remind myself of these things constantly, daily. I cannot wait to see the person I am going to become. I am learning to love life and the people in it.
It is hard to struggling in a brand new place, some people would think it would be easier to just start over. Starting over has nothing to do with moving to a new place, because your past follows you. You just can't allow your past to over your present and your future. You have control of how you want to live your life. Choose wisely.
That's all I really have to say for tonight, until next time....
xoxox
days 3 & 4: don't blink
Yesterday I didn't get to write and I wanted to so badly. It was one of the best days that I have had in a long time, mainly because I got to shoot guns. I love doing that so much. (: So I got up and worked out, as usual before the long day I had ahead of me. I had the second part to my concealed weapons permit course. We spent the day at the range shooting; we had to successfully shoot the entire course to pass. What do you know? I passed with flying colors, 100%. I don't think my daddy could have been any prouder. It was a lot of fun because I got to do it with my mom, dad, sister, brother, and sister-in-law. My family means so much to me, so it made it that much more fun and enjoyable.
I have a crazy family, so taking this course was quite a hoot. We like to joke around but we know when it is time to get serious. Although some of the videos were a little outdated, it was extremely informational and insightful. Sometimes they just pulled out scenarios you would never even begin to think of. Even though I cannot carry concealed until I am 21, it was totally worth taking the class. I would recommend anyone and everyone who considered taking the class to do so. It is well worth the time and money spent.
After that we had a big evening with family. (: Huge homemade dinner because today was supposed to be my last day home, I am supposed to be in Radford right now. But anyway, we had dinner and enjoyed the stories that were told from the class earlier in the day. After that I took a little nap...the evening is when it got exciting. My daddy had been wanting to watch the movie "Taken", so we had a family movie night. Well, after it was over, we were all in such suspense that we just HAD to watch the second one. We proceeded to watch "Taken 2". They were both extremely good, I really liked them. Two of the greatest things in my life are watching movies and my family; I love it when we get to do relaxing things like that together. I am truly blessed.
So, today would be day 4, even though less than half an hour and it's over. /:
Today was absolutely crazy! We got up and went to mass, then it was time to begin what was supposed to be vigorous packing for me to go back to college. Seeing as how that didn't happen, I am lying in my bed at home, anxiously awaiting 5 am to start the four hour drive back to Radford. So, I got distracted in every possible way today; partially because I absolutely hate packing and partially because I totally have mixed feelings about going back. I know I'll be excited once I get there, it's just the journey to actually get there is a lot of work and no fun. I got to have one last sunday dinner with the family and then a chill day.
I spent it packing on and off before we went on our expedition to get everything I needed before we headed back. All in all, tonight ended with yet another great movie ("The Words") and a friendly family competitive game of Family Feud.
In case y'all were wondering, my family means more to me than anything in this world. They are my rock at all times. I know we might fight and not get along all the time, but they have never left my side and they would never leave me in the dust. I am truly grateful and I thank God every single day for my loved ones. Without them, I honestly have not one clue where I would be or if I would still be alive. I have more to be thankful for every day, especially since I am still living and breathing.
I could go on and on about my family and the rest of my days, but I have finally finished packing the last of my things away to head back to college. Next time I write, I will be in a different state surrounded by different people who love me just the same. I am excited to see what kind of adventure awaits me this semester. until next time...
xoxox
I have a crazy family, so taking this course was quite a hoot. We like to joke around but we know when it is time to get serious. Although some of the videos were a little outdated, it was extremely informational and insightful. Sometimes they just pulled out scenarios you would never even begin to think of. Even though I cannot carry concealed until I am 21, it was totally worth taking the class. I would recommend anyone and everyone who considered taking the class to do so. It is well worth the time and money spent.
After that we had a big evening with family. (: Huge homemade dinner because today was supposed to be my last day home, I am supposed to be in Radford right now. But anyway, we had dinner and enjoyed the stories that were told from the class earlier in the day. After that I took a little nap...the evening is when it got exciting. My daddy had been wanting to watch the movie "Taken", so we had a family movie night. Well, after it was over, we were all in such suspense that we just HAD to watch the second one. We proceeded to watch "Taken 2". They were both extremely good, I really liked them. Two of the greatest things in my life are watching movies and my family; I love it when we get to do relaxing things like that together. I am truly blessed.
So, today would be day 4, even though less than half an hour and it's over. /:
Today was absolutely crazy! We got up and went to mass, then it was time to begin what was supposed to be vigorous packing for me to go back to college. Seeing as how that didn't happen, I am lying in my bed at home, anxiously awaiting 5 am to start the four hour drive back to Radford. So, I got distracted in every possible way today; partially because I absolutely hate packing and partially because I totally have mixed feelings about going back. I know I'll be excited once I get there, it's just the journey to actually get there is a lot of work and no fun. I got to have one last sunday dinner with the family and then a chill day.
I spent it packing on and off before we went on our expedition to get everything I needed before we headed back. All in all, tonight ended with yet another great movie ("The Words") and a friendly family competitive game of Family Feud.
In case y'all were wondering, my family means more to me than anything in this world. They are my rock at all times. I know we might fight and not get along all the time, but they have never left my side and they would never leave me in the dust. I am truly grateful and I thank God every single day for my loved ones. Without them, I honestly have not one clue where I would be or if I would still be alive. I have more to be thankful for every day, especially since I am still living and breathing.
I could go on and on about my family and the rest of my days, but I have finally finished packing the last of my things away to head back to college. Next time I write, I will be in a different state surrounded by different people who love me just the same. I am excited to see what kind of adventure awaits me this semester. until next time...
xoxox
Friday, January 18, 2013
Day 2: it's raining men!
haha, just kidding...it's actually raining dogs and horses? well, whatever, it still works! I decided to write about the animals in my life because they are just as important to people to me. I love them with my whole heart and would not change it for the world. Animals are just as great if not better than human beings themselves.
This morning I woke up and have seriously never felt better. I feel like a brand new person. I read one of my devotionals because my other is at school. It reminded me that I need to walk by faith, that as long as I am still breathing God still has a plan for me.
It is so hard to think that there is someone who cares and loves you for you all the time. 24/7/365. I am so thankful there is though. God has saved my life figuratively and literally in more ways than one. Although I have no clue what I am supposed to do with the rest of my life or what I'm supposed to be doing now, He's always going to be there. As long as I ask for guidance and help, He's going to give it to me. I've got to be the one to put forth the effort though, it doesn't just happen over night. Just like mostly anything anymore, this is a process. I've got to be wait it out and see what happens. As cliche as it is, good things to come to those who wait. Plus, patience is a virtue. (:
Just like everything else in this life, I know God put this animals in my life for a reason. It sounds corny, I know, but it is completely true. I have never really had very many friends growing up, especially not friends that were girls either. I think that is why I have such a passion for animals. They don't judge you at first sight and will always be there for you no matter what. I think I went the right way when I chose animals over people. Joking and not joking.
I want to live on a farm when I grow up. I want to have horses that I can ride and dogs that can cuddle. I want my kids to know the importance of having animals in their lives and how to treat them right. A bond between a person and an animal can go a long way. Once they are a part of your life, they continue to be your life long best friend. Animals are just like family and it isn't any easier to cope when they pass.
I do not know what I would do without these animals. They keep me up and going, they have literally been though the walks of my life with me. They probably know more than any human being does about me and it will probably stay that way. I love these animals more than life itself and I would do anything for them. Without Remi and Matt Dillon, I am honestly not quite sure if I would have survived my senior year of high school, no joke. Those two kept me on my feet and going. I will be forever grateful. I love these guys. <3
xoxox
This morning I woke up and have seriously never felt better. I feel like a brand new person. I read one of my devotionals because my other is at school. It reminded me that I need to walk by faith, that as long as I am still breathing God still has a plan for me.
It is so hard to think that there is someone who cares and loves you for you all the time. 24/7/365. I am so thankful there is though. God has saved my life figuratively and literally in more ways than one. Although I have no clue what I am supposed to do with the rest of my life or what I'm supposed to be doing now, He's always going to be there. As long as I ask for guidance and help, He's going to give it to me. I've got to be the one to put forth the effort though, it doesn't just happen over night. Just like mostly anything anymore, this is a process. I've got to be wait it out and see what happens. As cliche as it is, good things to come to those who wait. Plus, patience is a virtue. (:
This little guy is my rock. This is my puppy Remington, but we call him Remi for short. He is one person, (next to God of course) and well dog, that is always there for me. As stupid as it might sound, he's my best friend. Dogs are smart and well, Remi knows when something is wrong. This dog cuddles me until I let go of him when I am crying. He never leaves my side. It is so hard having to leave him behind for school. I cannot wait to be home next semester just so I can see him more often. This dog has more of my heart than anyone.
Next to my pup, this horse is my everything. Even though he isn't mine, I treat him as if he was. Matt Dillon is his precious little name. This horse has more emotions than any animal I have ever met but I wouldn't change him for the world. He is Grayson's horse and he was also left behind when Grayson left for school in Montana in 2011. I grew a stronger bond with horse than I did with anyone else or animal in such a short amount of time. This horse means everything to me and I miss him so much. Trust me, we've had our ups and downs and this horse has more attitude than a class full of middle school girls but I love him the same. He was the only horse that I ever consistently rode and was truly an amazing companion.
I want to live on a farm when I grow up. I want to have horses that I can ride and dogs that can cuddle. I want my kids to know the importance of having animals in their lives and how to treat them right. A bond between a person and an animal can go a long way. Once they are a part of your life, they continue to be your life long best friend. Animals are just like family and it isn't any easier to cope when they pass.
I do not know what I would do without these animals. They keep me up and going, they have literally been though the walks of my life with me. They probably know more than any human being does about me and it will probably stay that way. I love these animals more than life itself and I would do anything for them. Without Remi and Matt Dillon, I am honestly not quite sure if I would have survived my senior year of high school, no joke. Those two kept me on my feet and going. I will be forever grateful. I love these guys. <3
xoxox
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)